I know. I know. Like two people missed me. But, hey...
I'm different and I feel like my view on food has changed greatly. I think I understand my palate better and I slightly understand better what it takes to something extraordinary in terms of food.
I took the time off because I had got caught up in life. You all know how that happens. I had especially got caught up with an exceptional woman. It was sudden and inexplicable. She took my breath away and I did the same to her. We were both a little broken at the time and helped each other get better and be better. Her journey was much more complicated than mine and I admired how she handled it with grace...albeit at arms length...always at arms length. It was gentle, it was kind, it was passionate, and it was a roller coaster. Above all, it was great. But, unfortunately, this relationship flew too closely to the sun. It feels like it never happened (we don't even have a picture together) but my heart says otherwise right now. It ended suddenly and inexplicably. It ended without closure but you somehow knew it ended. I wanted to rage and I did. I wanted to cry and I did. I wanted to lash out but I didn't. Now, I just want her to know that I loved her and even though the wounds are still fresh, I understand and yet I don't understand. I hope one day I will but that won't be today. I wish her well and she'll always have a piece of my soul.
One of my best memories with her is that we loved new restaurants. She hadn't experienced as much food as I had (oysters...she had never had oystsers!) so I loved the light in her eyes when she tasted things for the first time. I conveyed my love for food to her and she took it all in wide-eyed and indulgent. I think maybe that's why i stopped writing. I had all the sharing I needed to do. It was enough for me to share my passion with one.
But, now I'm back. I've realized a few things. One, I enjoy writing more when it's tongue-in-cheek. Unfortunately, that is not this post but believe me it will be in all subsequent writings. Two, I hate taking fucking pictures of food. I'm embarrassed for me when I do it and I'm embarrassed every time I see someone else doing it. I saw a man who looked like he was in his 60s do it the other day. Christ, just stop. I know camera phones are so much better but take pictures of your loved ones. Things that matter. Also, I'm pretty sure it's disrespectful to the resto and the other people trying to enjoy their meal. So, I've given up the galleries and the pictures. Three, another reason I stopped writing was I think I was writing to get more audience. I got caught up in wanting people to read my shit. Well, I don't think my shit was even very good. I had found a voice that somewhat resonated but a little taste of success. Being invited to visit a restaurant here and there, went to my head. I wrote to have more people read what I had to say. I didn't write because I just loved the food and the experience. So, I'm back now, sans pictures, to just write for me and my personal hobby of loving food and restaurants.
Well, now that I'm back. I can say that I've eaten at a lot of places in the almost two plus years that I had stopped. I may be writing from distant memories or more recent experiences but I have a lot to get through so let's do it